Kiku Collins: Old Blog to 12/09

Is it possible?

Do people read this swill??? ;)

Well, it's nice to know, thank you to those of you reading my words. And thank GOODNESS I keep it a bit anonymous with regard to other folks in my life.

Anyway, I have been finding so much joy in, well, joy. Spring, though still chilly, has been beautiful. Starting with a snowstorm, but clearing up to gorgeous skies and the smell of promise on the breeze.

Interestingly enough, for the recent negativity that has invaded my life, by simply accepting other people's insecurities as their own and moving on as much as I can, I've found many more new friends entering my life, those who are positive and encouraging and don't have any reason (yet, I suppose!) to lie. As far as I know!!!

I sure hope that folks aren't being someone they think I want in my life just to become friends. It's happened before, but ya know, I just don't sense it at the moment. And I'm not looking for it, for the truth always reveals itself in time, and nothing happens by accident. I'm a firm believer in fates of certain types, of seemingly bad things happening that affect your life positively in the end. But methinks it's time for a break, so I'm hoping that life is not bringing me drama queens or kings to battle. 'Cuz I'm just a Ninja Princess with a crown full of faux gems and real intentions.

xo,
NP

For it has been 9 days since my last blog.

Life is funny. One minute you're having your morning coffee, and the next, it's 10 days later!

It's been quite busy. I had an awesome time playing with J. Viewz at Irving Plaza last Saturday. It was amazing, considering I'd met everyone but Jonathan that night, at soundcheck! Glad I had enough sense to work with the mp3's and write out a wicked road map for the entire set, on one page with different colored sharpies. I think I kept up. At least I'm told I did, and I'm going to default to that answer! Plus I had my killer boots on, and had such an awesome vibe interacting with all the band members and the audience, 'specially the one in the light up glasses mouthing proposals to me the whole set. At least, he appeared to be. But it might have been him telling me that he saw the dents in my horn. Ah, whatever. It was a great time and I hope to get to play with the band again after their tour in Israel!

Life has been a really interesting ride. You think you know someone, you SWEAR you know them, and one day, they take off that mask and you realize that they have been living a lie, or in shame of something, and you have believed in good faith that their mask was really them.

"the truth, it's the easiest thing to remember..." I find this quote interesting today. Because in order to tell the truth, you need to know it first. People throw quotes around to impress folks, or at least confuse them. But sometimes, those people have no idea that behind their masks is where the truth lies. And instead of revealing their personal truths, they bottle them, seal them off, and store them within, only to lie again and again - until that bottle is ready to pop and their truth starts to leak out.

What's the point? If someone doesn't like humor, especially sarcasm, then don't get too close to a sarcastic person. If someone feels insecure about being with someone in a certain field, or with certain responsibilities, then why do you go there? I'm not accusing here, just saying. Don't pretend to be someone that you think someone else will like. It's never worth it.

I was once in a relationship with someone who, when I told them I didn't watch sports, claimed to not be a sports fan. He left out baseball and football season. Seriously.

Or the smoker who swore he was quitting. Yeah. I should have known better.

I find that the truth IS the easiest thing to remember. However, when people throw these quotes around and live a lie, well, are they lying again or simply crying for help?

Heck if I know.

I just have to finish these darned taxes!!!

I hope everyone is smiling, staying calm and happy, living honestly with compromise but not unacceptable compromise, and is getting some sleep. Man, I need sleep.

I think I can do that a little this weekend. Not much, but enough to start trying to catch up! This has been a wicked month, good and bad, emotional and bull-shittial (yay, a new word!), lovely and life in general. I don't know about the rest of you out there, but I know for sure that I was put on this earth to learn, love and be happy and helpful. Pretty much a bunch of good stuff, and ain't nobody gonna drag this princess down without a Kung Fu fight! Lovingly, of course!

xo,
NP

http://www.pewarts.org/index.html
You'd never know that the room was about 20 degrees by her gorgeously warm performance! I had a *blast* recording with her!!! Enjoy and experience an amazing talent and wonderful person!

xo,
NP

I was reminded today of the awesomeness of poet Pablo Neruda. This past summer, on tour in South America, fellow Sugarhorn Elizabeth begged me to tour his house. Yes, begged. Ok, maybe not begged but asked strongly. I finally caved, after about 6 minutes. Yeah, I put up quite the fight. I was in love with Santiago and wanted to explore every crevice. When I realized that Las Chascona was indeed a crevice of Santiago, I could not resist.

Knowing nothing of the poet, I absolutely fell in love with his home, the story of insane romance, and even purchased various colored glass goblets upon my return home, because I fell in love with his goblets in his house. "Everything tastes better in colored glasses". He was right.

Listening to his poems and reading afterwards, my heart filled with a hope that there was more in this world than what I've been able to find. I didn't know if I would find what Pablo had with Matilde. But knowing that they had found such a deep and magical love for each other made me at least smile at the world a little more.

Being reminded of Neruda's spirit in such a strange time in my life brought a tear to my eye. No, really, it did. Because for every day that you face challenges and hardships, disappointments and deceit, if you live with love in your heart - you will be rewarded with many more days filled with what you desire in life. I fully believe this, and am grateful for such a lovely gaggle of friends, old and new, near and far, even alive and deceased. Memories carry emotions and feelings and lessons, and for those who have passed on- reminders are left behind. Like a scent, or a word, or the way the wind blows.

I'm positive I'll get sillier in my entries again someday, but for now, all I feel is tremendous love in my heart and a grateful sigh of relief, knowing that no matter what, the world is on my side because I've chosen to send love to everyone - and a sprinkle more to those who live their days with fear and hatred - instead of sending back their harsh and hurtful emotions.

I'm positive I'm some wacked out hippie reincarnated when I get like this, but it's not a bad thing.

xo,
NP

Sometimes people will try to hurt you, thinking it will help quiet their own demons that have nothing to do with you.

They can't hurt you unless you let them. You might feel the sting, you might cry, but look past the superficial layer and you'll see a scared child, unable to comprehend an abusive parent, mean kids making fun, or worse...

If you posess such demons, take that painful look within. Discover what makes you angry. Make your own life, and decide if it's worth it to hurt others because of something hurting you.

We're all human - we all have had bad experiences. But there's no reason to create new bad experiences for others. If you honestly look at what makes you mean, violent, or otherwise hurtful to others, you may be surprised at how vulnerable you really are. Take down your walls, love yourself and others. Life is short - and I intend to smile the rest of the way, as much as possible! (My orthodontist would be very happy!)

I find life interesting, to say the least. Sometimes people are brought together to look within themselves, and not just to be with each other. Sometimes it works, and sometimes one looks in and the other looks away.

Be that person who looks in. Learn and love and laugh. Do you believe you were put on this Earth to be miserable, or cruel, or a liar to yourself? Probably not. It's never too late to say you're sorry. It's never too late to love. In fact, it may be perfect timing.

xo,
NP

Honesty will get you everywhere you need to be.

Recently I was told that I have been lied to, for quite a while it seems. I was willing to forgive with some honest and open discussion. The person decided it was better to just give up and run.

I can't blame myself for someone else's fear - but I can encourage everyone to be open and honest with your friends. Eventually, the truth comes out. And how embarrassing is it to be caught in a lie? How does that make your heart feel?

Well, mine is bruised from this episode. I thought I knew this person, but apparently I knew whatever I was shown. Which had nothing to do with the truth.

Life goes on, we live and learn. We have all had moments of hiding, disguising, lying, but in the end - has it ever done us any good? Only as a learning experience, which is what I pray this person will get. I don't know and may never know. But I can hope and throw love and good energy to the universe and hope that everyone can heal.

xo,
NP

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If you ask nicely I may just throw in a copy of my cd "Here With Me"! :)

Happy bidding!

Sometimes it sucks to tell the truth. Sometimes it brings stuff out that you're afraid of. But it is always the truth, and will come out no matter what... even if you take it to your grave, it's there. Somewhere.

And on a happy note - not that that was sad, just the truth... happy belated Valentines day to all! Be happy, honest and loving to those who matter most. Even those who don't matter so much, you know - being a "meanie" gets ya nowhere really fast. Even just being cold, or whatever. Embrace differences, similarities, whatever is going on around you and within you!

I broke down and embraced a lovely bagel with tofu cream cheese today - I have nothing against gluten except that it makes me a little *blech*. But once in a while, ya just gotta do it. Especially in NYC!

Have a great week everyone!

xo,
NP

Being different is not a bad thing. Remind your children, remind yourselves too! Love your uniqueness and beauty that nobody else has... it's all yours!

xo,
NP

On the road again, getting ready to hit soundcheck in a bit. I got on an airplane Monday morning, tired, sick with a cold, and so grateful to have work for the week as an artist. I never take work for granted, and in these times, I am so much more aware.

I was thrilled at the sold out performance in North Carolina. And big thanks to Mama Vicki for coming and having a blast with us! It just amazes me that people still pay to see a "dream show", depending on their artistic tastes. Michael Bolton fans are hardcore, and to them I extend a huge "thank you" for making this tour possible in such hard times!

Yes, we're all cutting back, we shop less, we clip more coupons, we buy generic and we reuse (which of course is best for mother nature no matter what the economy is!!! Remember that when things pick up!) But there is also a need for finding happiness. I was in the gym, something I can't find time to do at home anymore since I've been incredibly busy trying to make ends meet - not that I'm complaining! But in watching CNN during my 2 hour workout session (yeah, I was feeling good!) I enjoyed not only watching our new president signing the Ledbetter fair pay jam, which was awesome, but also the report trying to help folks fight depression when losing their job etc. It mentioned exercise. Of course it did! And sometimes we all forget how important it is to move, not just because we want to lose weight or look better in general, but because it does release those delicious endorphins etc... take time for yourself! Jump rope for a few minutes - it's hard core and will pump your heart in no time. Do some crunches before bed, try pushups! If you're not strong enough to do traditional ones, do the ladies version (on knees) or even against a wall at an angle. It's all pumping blood to your muscles and energizing you and making you feel better, accomplished, no matter your fitness level. Take a walk. Do jumping jacks. Race your kids, your dog, just do something and smile that you've made a difference. Everyday. And battle what needs to be battled with as much of a positive attitude as you can find.

As for Blagojevich, no comment. Jeez.

xo,
NP

Bach Stradivarius model 183 for sale! Retails new for $3,120.00, buy it cheaper with character and *big concert* credits, haha!

Seriously, this horn was the main voice on my "Here With Me" cd, was on Oprah, The Today Show etc... it flew around the globe and played on huge stages... I'm finally happy and adjusted to my new Getzen flugelhorn and am ready to pass this along to make beautiful music in someone elses hands! It has plenty of flaws as all *good used* horns do, but nothing structural that will need to be repaired to make it work... it sounds fantastic as is and personally I never wanted to fix anything on it (except in Italy when I needed a spit valve reattached!)

I know you can get these new on sale on a variety of websites. This was purchased in the early/mid 80s and personally is the best sounding Bach Strad flugel I've ever played on (and many colleagues would agree, including my repair guy!)


http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2412487&l=04552&id=674442393
I'm unsure of how to price it so make me a reasonable offer!

xo,
NP

Ah yes, the slimy baby gecko emerges from it's itty bitty egg that has been carefully incubated in special hatching substrate in a chinese take out soup container with holes poked in it. This will mark the 5th birth of a gecko in our house! One egg awaits crackin'. The little guy is all slimed like on Ghostbusters, it takes them a while to wake up and smell the world!

It's funny, Crested Geckos (or "Cresties" as some reptile fans call them) are very sweet creatures. Fast too. Especially the babes. They have to run away from their hungry, and possibly angry parents. That's why when I find eggs, I separate them and the babies are on their own immediately. Not like us humans... 18 years plus and we still can't let go after college!

Anyway, these things are expensive in a store but it's hard to sell them independently. Especially in this horrid cash market we live in currently.

If anyone is interested, send an email at kiku@kikucollins.com . They do make cool pets, they're not creepy looking, they can walk up walls, very low maintenance pets but they're fun to hold - unlike goldfish! Yuk.

Anyway, back to checking on egg #2. And I do have to find a home for the other little ones, I hate having 3 active tanks! Yeesh.

And what about this cold? Brrrrr. And the plane crash, thank goodness everyone emerged all right. And this inauguration! WOO!

xo,
NP

ps. The reason I initially signed on to blog was this:

Top 10 produce you should buy organic:
1. Peaches
2. Apples
3. Bell Peppers
4. Celery
5. Nectarines
6. Strawberries
7. Cherries
8. Lettuce
9. Grapes (imported)
10. Pears

I'm an organic freak for the most part, but I thought this was helpful for those organic freaks on a budget. And aren't we all on a budget nowadays???

It's been SO busy in my little life that I haven't had proper practice time. And while I could crawl into my studio now I just can't muster the energy at the moment. Maybe I'll pop my practice mute in and laze on the couch and play long notes, at least that's something, right?

Life has been exhausting, yet I'm grateful to be busy at the moment. Life is funny, and so I will continue to call what I think would help me out in this life. I guess I should also call for a cleaning person, because I've been to busy to really sweep under the beds and vacuum the corners! But everyone is healthy and smiling, even me, through my exhausted eyeballs. Yeah, mute on couch night.

No matter how tired you may be from this situation called life, remember that it's rough for so many, and if you continue to live a good life and care for those around you, while caring for yourself as much as you can, good things come in return. Man, life is funny. I'd laugh if I weren't so exhausted! Yet I find the energy every day to do what needs to be done to survive to be proud to not only survive but support and love.

Man, I definitley need a little sleep! I think I can catch up on Saturday...

xo,
NP

Sometimes I just don't know. A couple of strange happenings tonight which could have ended up really hurting someone very innocent, but was saved by an unlikely hero... people sometimes don't think before they act, they misplace inquiries, they assume, they take. I'm grateful that tonight ended up being fine, but am confused by the lack of thinking and concern that went on tonight. Seriously, when you think you are helping someone by taking from someone else (who should have more of your loyalties), THINK before you ask. And THINK about who you're asking. Don't ask someone who doesn't live with the person, ask the person directly or the person directly responsible. Geez.

Anyway, while that is probably too cryptic, I didn't want to disclose details or people. But there is a lesson and I didn't want to sleep on that one in my blog. I think sometimes people are afraid of hurting the wrong people.

But sometimes out of these wierd situations, an unlikely hero will save the situation, save the tears and the unnecessary stupidity that could have taken place.

People are all different, we are all raised differently, but there are some truths that should remain consistent in all of us. Should.

The worst case scenario would have been a broken heart inside of a very innocent person who had nothing to do with the situation, unnecessary expenses to try and repair the heartache, and a lot of hurt and tense feelings between people who already have enough tension by years of situation.

Whew. Glad that's over with - for now!

My daughter just wrote an awesome book, inspired by my friend's dog being sprayed by a skunk this weekend. I am proud to say that other than reminding her that she promised to write it, I had nothing to do with the creation of the book. It's awesome. And funny! I always worry that creativity in children is dying. It is. But there are the kids who still have it, who still grab the crayons and paper and glitter and see a car when they see an empty cardboard box, or a telescope when the paper towels are all used up.

Parents, encourage your kids to use the creativity within. Don't buy a bunch of video games and dvd's. Have them make up games, draw and color their own pictures, film them acting out simple things and let them see that they can be the main character instead of some child star or illustrated kid or machine or animal. Small doses, of course. But don't allow your children to be so sucked into the media that they no longer have a desire to draw, to learn to play the piano, to run on something other than some special pad connected to a video game. Race them to the corner. Play board games. Bake pumpkin bread from scratch. Show them what it's like to take a chicken and turn it into soup! Pass along the things that we may start to forget as we get older and busier.

Wow, I'm preachy. I should probably crawl into bed soon, very busy week ahead...

xo,
NP

What a lovely NYE last night. Considering I didn't have a gig, like many of my musical friends and associates, I decided to spend it at home with family, made a lovely lasagna (yeah, gluten free and mostly dairy free for those who are checking up!)

I think we didn't even make it to midnight but that was a wonderful way to celebrate. I love getting rest, something I don't do all the time. I was in heaven. Sad though, about the downgrade in entertainment. I was shocked at the number of wonderful musicians who were unemployed on what is normally the busiest and most lucrative gig night of the year. Oh well. I hope it gets better for all of us artists! And others who have lost their jobs, are trying to feed their families and pay their mortgages, I hope that everyone makes it happen.

I have a good feeling about 2009, despite the economy. I am probably the happiest I've ever been with my family, except for a little cold right now, my daughter is in good health (though we head to the hospital Tuesday for more post-surgical talk and talk about what to do next and how soon... how much can my heart and wallet take?) But it's all for the best, and she is worth everything. As for the cold, homemade chicken soup with rice noodles, lots of vitamin c, homemade lemonade with fresh lemons, saline nasal spray, and some homeopathic junk when needed. She feels fine now, so it seems we've cleared out lots of the critters! Yippee!

I hope everyone had a safe NYE and is thinking and acting in positive ways for the new year, and always. Really, I've not always been on that route, but everything else just doesn't seem worth it. Keep smiling! :)

xo,
NP

Hi all! Been away from ye olde blogge for the holidays. It's been a very busy time for a few reasons. Besides the very fun 3 Christmas Eve gigs I got to rock - classical style (ok, one was more Christmas Carrolly, and we did some polka-ing etc. of a few numbers)... of course the whole Santa gig is quite demanding. No wonder the real Santa Claus had to delegate his work to the parents of the world. I think I did ok... no, I did great! The sluggish economy afforded enough sales, at least free shipping and little coupons here and there, to ensure a decent Christmas take for the year. No, it's not all about presents, but come on - we were all kids. I grew up quite poor, and remember a slight disappointment that I was either not a great kid (which I think I was?) or that Santa didn't dig half-Asians or something. Well, screw that. My kid has great Christmasses without prejudice. She had a rough year though she's resilient enough to not complain about a thing. Anyway, things like an adorable Fur Real rollover puppy (which I personally love!) a super cool spy car (I think this is secretly MINE!) is like a live action video game - you wear an eye piece and can see from the camera installed on the car. Chase the cats, it's loads of fun! Also a wierd Tribot robot that I got on a whim when seeing it in Brookstone on tour. I had heard about it, apparently she had seen a commercial... well, it's ok. She loves it, so that's all good. Of course a bunch of educational things since the Japanese side kicks in whenever I am buying gifts for her... a microscope and telescope, painting, needlepoint (I used to love that junk as a kid!) and other art goodies.

One other reason I've been so dagnabbed busy is that I've been temping to fill in the blanks, help to chip away at medical bills (of course insurance doesn't pay for all my kid's surgery... why would they??? Grrr.) at a non-profit agency that I've actually had on my website since the day I launched. www.yai.org . I kind of lucked into a gig there, especially on a temp basis for very cool people... with the flexibility thusfar to alter my hours to fit my girl's school schedule, to allow me to tour when the call arises, but I can't wear jeans. Jeez, that's half my wardrobe! But I'm making due, I have gotten creative with what I have plus a few new "grownup" pieces. My girl swears I look good as a grownup but I'm on the fence about it all. I guess it's like when I dress up for gigs in all the faux gems and mile-long lashes and glittery eyelids. Anyway, I'm grateful that I've gotten something in a field that I've always had much interest in anyway - folks who know me know that I have a big softie spot in my heart for disabilities, the rights of the disabled, etc... this is a whole new learning experience for me and it's nice to be a part of helping those folks every day. We'll see how it goes over time, but the good thing is my type A personality, my computer knowledge and ability to dig new stuff is all good. I guess also running my biz for so many years and my Virgo sign helps with the neuroticness of the tasks at hand.

That's all! My girl is just finishing up her breakfast of poached eggs and homemade (yeah, from an actual pumpkin) gluten free pumpkin bread. What a life, 'eh? ;)

Hope everyone has had a tremendous Christmas or Hannukah or whatever you decide to celebrate or however you decide to spell it.

And, oddly enough, I am still looking for a NYE gig! As are many of my friends, it's a tapped out year in that arena. If anyone has a decent paying gig for a chick trumpeter who can sing wimpy backups and swing on a trapeze, let me know! :)

xo,
NP

Yes, I've seen this clip thousands of times. Everyone emails it to me, everyone laughs about her performance, and yeah, it stunk. But this interview is great, she sounds like a nice girl.

http://blogs.pitch.com/plog/2007/10/stacy_hedger_revealed.php
Obviously, she is not a professional musician. She has gotten tons of press, though folks are so mean to her. I mean, shoot, haven't we all had a crap performance now and again? I know I do, and I fully admit to it. It's ok to be honest and give constructive criticism in a kind way - and I would certainly tell her that it's a good thing she did not pursue trumpet playing as her profession (she apparently has a few kids, don't know if she's a SAHM or working). I played the violin for about a week in high school, and even performed a concert with the school orchestra (tripling on trumpet and french horn that gig) and if anyone ever played a video of me sawing away on that awful thing, I would hope that they would get it - I'm not a violinist, even if I am half asian! ;)

Well, it's nice to be inside today. We did some laundry and multi-tasked by playing in the snow during the wash cycle... but it's SO cold out there, that the snow was literally frozen, not good for snowballing, snow angels, or a snow man or woman, to be PC about it. I think I'll make some cocoa for my girl and some soy matcha green tea for myself. I don't drink it a lot, packed with calories - but those calories are packed with deliciousness I can't deny! :)

Hope everyone is healthy, loved, loving, calm during a rough financial year at a critical time... I know I have a mountain of bills and am not sure how to tackle it, but remembering our health and happiness as a family makes me think the mountain is not the most important thing out there.

xo,
NP

Landing in Grand Cayman was a nice shock, but without enough time to truly enjoy the sun and surf and random amphibians running along the beach, we found ourselves plunked back into the coldness of reality. However, a great lineup of gigs, fun times with the group and friends along the way made up for it!

I find myself in Niagara Falls, on the NY side (no, this is nowhere near where I live for folks who have forgotten all about the map-learnin' they did in grammar school). It is freezing, but yesterday we took a stroll to the falls which was just a few minutes walk from the hotel. Gorgeous! I hadn't been there since I was a little girl, just a few years back. ;)

Deciding to not brave the cold again, I got a surprisingly fantastic haircut and style at the Spa in the hotel! Normally I avoid this stuff for fear of a bad cut or worse, a big bill, but I was surprised with a wonderful cut, fab curls for fun, and a more than reasonable charge. I desperately needed a cut, the brillo ends are not becoming, but knew that I would never have the time, or at least allow myself the time once back home.

This has been the perfect length tour. Enough time to enjoy band and crew member's company without strangling each other. The show is fun each time, because we aren't doing it 20 times in a row. And it's been just enough time to give my loved ones and I some breathing space without being in tears every night from missing each other.

Christmas shopping has been an interesting job on the road. Viva la Online Shopping! I can't wait to get home to see what I ordered! :)

Hopefully everyone is safe and healthy and happy. Life can really throw you through the wringer, or body slam you on a bed of nails, but if you keep your chin up and yourself in the barrel as you go over Niagara Falls, you can heal the scrapes and bruises.

http://www.niagarafallslive.com/daredevils_of_niagara_falls.htm
Life is great. Keep smiling and forge ahead. Many folks have lost jobs recently and worse, but remember that this season is not about shopping, or giving or receiving, it's about love. And cookies.

xo,
NP

I'm flying out this morning for a hairball less than 2 weeks, and am very excited to rejoin the Michael Bolton Band! It's been a long time and I'm really looking forward to it! I'll be back in town around the 15th, and when I return, a special gift for you! As a last minute stocking stuffer, I will offer my cd Here With Me at the Recession Holiday rate of $10 each + $5 shipping - regardless of how many stockings you'd like to fill! Of course I can't ship until the 16th so it's a close call, but if you're in the continental US and buy just a few, I can get them out the same day I receive a Paypal payment (to
kiku@kikucollins.com) and larger packages will go out the next business day. So jump on this, pay early and I can ship before I unpack my suitcase! If an autograph is desired, please send me the exact words. It's the holidays, no time to think!!!

SHOP FOR THE HOLIDAYS AND SUPPORT PS 11!

Barnes & Noble Book Fair
When: Friday & Saturday, December 5-6 from 10a-10pm
Where: Barnes & Noble Greenwich Village, 6th Avenue at 8th Street
Shop for books, gifts, CDs, calendars, and games and up to 20% of the sale will benefit PS 11.
Support the PS 11 Library and classrooms by buying books at the "Wish List Table" on the 2nd floor, and they'll deliver them to the school for you!
Just mention "PS 11 Book Fair" at the register.


PS11 Holiday Bazaar
When: Saturday, December 6th from 9-6 at
Where: PS 11, 320 West 21st Street
Get the rest of your holiday shopping wrapped up at this amazing sale! 100% of proceeds benefit our kids at PS 11!
Shop for fun and fantastic items including designer clothing from Hallabaloo, ceramics from Our Name Is Mud, glass and silver from Enesco.com, books from two major publishers ― the bargains start at $1.
Come ready to SHOP! Please spread the word and BRING FRIENDS.
Cash only.

Update, a few things are sold.
**Sold pending payment: vintage Buecher cornet from appx 1919. Looks vintage, and sounds awesome. I just don't have the use for a cornet or I'd hang on to it. It really sounds great. How about $50 with case, plus shipping?

And a slew of mouthpieces for sale (all will need shipping charges added):

Generic trombone as seen on TV (yeah, I used it on Good Morning America, hehe- as well as around the world) 11C - $5

Benge 5C trumpet, needs replating in my opinion - $5

I have 4 Bach mouthpieces which look like the older "small typeface" so they're not the newer ones (hint: the older ones rock) Each will be $15 which is a steal for the older model. As with all vintage mouthpieces, plating is definitely recommended as well as shank straightening if needed (5B needs it for sure)

I have 2 1/2c, 5B, 10 1/2 c, and 3D. These are definitely used but are definitely workable and repairable from what I can see.

I also have a (used once, didn't like it!) Marcinkiewicz E9*M Klein. Apparently a lot of commercial players love this one, but not me. $30. It's still in the case so you can pass it off as new.

Brand new in the box - Giardinelli Flugel LGF 12FL. Got it as a gift - wierd, huh? Not my size. Perfect condition, makes a great gift (haha!) $20.

One more, a small type (older) Bach 3CFL for your flugelhorn. Great condition. $15.

All mouthpieces have been sitting around so they need a good polishing at the very least.

I have a cool autoharp that I need to check stats on- I'll let it go cheap for sure! Kumbaya! Another vintage piece that needs some love. I'm thinking $50 with all the goodies plus shipping.

Make me an offer if you're looking at more than one item! I'm still looking through my archives and will most likely be selling off more stuff that I have around. Maybe if you're nice I'll even throw in a present when I ship. Also, feel free to try and negotiate. I'm always happy to help out, especially if these items are going to a young player who might not have the cash for toys - or their skeptical parents who don't want to pay full price (hey, I'm a parent too, I get it!) :)

Email me at kiku@kikucollins.com for all inquiries and photos. And remember, the holidays are a great time to get yourself a gift (yeah, I always end up buying *something* music related at the holidays for myself, this year it was a new case!)

And stay tuned for my Bach Flugel from the 80s... I'm working with my new Getzen and soon will be selling the Bach. It's got an insane sound on it, I recorded my album on it. But my sound is changing and the Getzen is working for me really well! :) I'm also considering selling my Schilke piccolo but it might be a while on that, however feel free to make me an offer! It's from at least the 80s and is missing the pinky ring but has an amazing sound!

Email me for photos! More to come, most likely!

xo,
NP

** (Sold, pending pickup!) Pro Tec Contoured PRO PAC Trumpet Case in red. Excellent used condition, just changing to a Torpedo bag! I also purchased the optional backpack straps which were an additional $20 (and still have the shoulder strap) so you can choose how you want to carry it! Before shipping charges, all these goodies were appx $110! I
will happily sell to you for $60 plus shipping.

**(sold, pending pickup) I'm also selling a used *red* King trumpet. Silver Flair model. I'm just not good with laquered horns. It's such a cool looking horn though it's been through some tough times. Got it used for around $250 - am happy to let it go (would be a great student horn though I believe it's considered in the intermediate or lower end pro category!) It's a 2055, ML bore. Comes with a nice Yamaha single case if you need one! With case - $150, without $125. Plus shipping of course! Don't worry, I can bubblewrap the horn and ship to you as is, I've done it before!

Also for sale is a vintage Buecher cornet. Looks vintage, and sounds awesome. I just don't have the use for a cornet or I'd hang on to it. It really sounds great. How about $50 with case, plus shipping?

And a slew of mouthpieces for sale (all will need shipping charges added):

Generic trombone as seen on TV (yeah, I used it on Good Morning America, hehe) 11C - $10

Benge 5C trumpet, needs replating in my opinion - $5

I have 4 Bach mouthpieces which look like the older "small typeface" so they're not the newer ones (hint: the older ones rock) Each will be $20 which is a steal for the older model. As with all vintage mouthpieces, plating is definitely recommended as well as shank straightening if needed (5B needs it for sure)

I have 2 1/2c, 5B, 10 1/2 c, and 3D. These are definitely used but are definitely workable and repairable from what I can see.

I also have a (used once, didn't like it!) Marcinkiewicz E9*M Klein. Apparently a lot of commercial players love this one, but not me. $35. It's still in the case so you can pass it off as new.

Brand new in the box - Giardinelli Flugel LGF 12FL. Got it as a gift - wierd, huh? Not my size. Perfect condition, makes a great gift (haha!) $20.

One more, a small type (older) Bach 3CFL for your flugelhorn. Great condition. $20.

All mouthpieces have been sitting around so they need a good polishing at the very least.

Ok, so obviously I'm not paying my rent by selling this stuff but I want it to go to a good home. Make me an offer if you're looking at more than one item! I'm still looking through my archives and will most likely be selling off more stuff that I have around. Maybe if you're nice I'll even throw in a present when I ship. Also, feel free to try and negotiate. I'm always happy to help out, especially if these items are going to a young player who might not have the cash for toys - or their skeptical parents who don't want to pay full price (hey, I'm a parent too, I get it!) :)

Email me at kiku@kikucollins.com for all inquiries and photos. And remember, the holidays are a great time to get yourself a gift (yeah, I always end up buying *something* music related at the holidays for myself, this year it was a new case!)

And stay tuned for my Bach Flugel from the 80s... I'm working with my new Getzen and soon will be selling the Bach. It's got an insane sound on it, I recorded my album on it. But my sound is changing and the Getzen is working for me really well! :)

Email me for photos! More to come, most likely!

xo,
NP

Well, I almost always smile. It's true. Even on the crappiest of days, there's always something that keeps everyone going - yes, everyone. So on your next crappy day, if you can't find a smile, dig deep and you will produce a happy memory, a loved one who stands by you no matter what, a slice of pumpkin pie if that's your favorite thing ever... you get the picture!

Here's my rant on reusable bags. Other than Whole Foods - nobody seems to pack them for you when you bring your own! I'm huge on the whole reuse my own bags thing. Not because it's trendy, I've done it for a long time and I now never leave home without one or two tucked away, just in case! But how is it that you clearly place your bag at the end of the conveyor belt at the checkout, where normally your bags are packed, and they just ignore it? I mean, I'm fumbling through my wallet, pushing in my pin number and whatnot, and they're sitting there tapping their acrylic nails just waiting? I don't think it's beneath me to pack my own bags and I always end up helping regardless, but what is so intimidating about a reusable bag to a cashier? They're easier to pack, I think! Maybe it seems like "personal property" or something, but at the very least they could offer to help. Sigh. Well, I'll of course keep trying to help our earth out, but I'm just miffed by this. It happens a lot, too. And I'm nice! Jeez! Small talk, I always try to get a smile out of everyone if I can, 'cuz smiling makes everyone feel better.

Oh well. But a big Thank You to Whole Foods for always packing those bags, and also for the green bag refunds. Why doesn't every store do it?? I think it would motivate more shoppers to bring in bags. 5 or 10 cents doesn't seem like a lot but when you consider how many bags you pack a week in a supermarket or drugstore...

On coffee. I detoxed a few months ago, and to my surprise, dropping coffee not only left me with very little withdrawal symptoms, but kept me more awake during the day and of course I slept better at night. Well, I bought some beautiful Japanese green tea the other day, finally decided to use my mother's tea set from Japan she had sent to my US grandma in the 60s or 70s, and am in green tea heaven! I haven't had a lick of coffee all week, and same thing - more alert, I don't feel the urge to nap or reload on caffeine (which always ended up making me more tired)... I guess coffee is just not right for me. Which is wierd since I started drinking it around the 5th grade (a slick ploy to get me to drink milk... little did they know that I had lactose issues which accounted for my cow teat repulsion. Plus, the disgustingness from which it comes).

I'm glad I finally decided to use the tea set. I kept it for years, in a box. Why? It was too good for me, or too valuable or too sentimental? Talk about stagnant qi, stopping the energy and keeping those vintage good feelings stale. Yeesh! It's nice and gives me such a warm connection to my Mom, who I feel more and more connected to as time goes on. I *lost* her when I was just 18, but somehow she's been with me more than ever, especially through the hard times. My daughter even "talks" to her. Yes, the magical child. :)

I had another rant, I swear. But now I can't remember, so I have to continue on my path of today. I AM very excited to be the proud owner of a www.torpedobags.com ! It was a tough decision, but I ended up going Classic Nylon. The leather looks super slick, but for my back issues I need as light as I can get with backpack straps. Maybe someday I'll get a leather one too - but for now I need to be able to run over my horn with a car. And this will do the trick.

Oh, my horn... then I promise I'll sign off! My Vax Getzen is getting a makeover! I'll post photos when it gets back to me... I'm SO excited. And what's more exciting, I'm waiting for UPS to arrive to deliver my new flugelhorn! Yes! Another Getzen. My Bach has served me well, since the mid 80s, but it's time for a change, and by change I don't mean when my Bach rattles and things fall off of it. And being a girl, the flugel and Bb will match. You'll see! :)

Ok, now it's really time to go. A little more green tea, a little more practicing (on my old King, egads, I miss my Getzen so much!) then off to get my kiddo from school!

Life has been kind of rough in these past few months, but every day I remind myself that I'm climbing up some wacked out mountain. It's snowing on the mountain but luckily I packed my skis - I hope I reach the top soon so I can have a fun ride for a while!!!

xo,
NP

I've been SO busy and am so thrilled to have a lovely daughter with less than 2 weeks to be officially "recovered" from a whopper of a surgery! She's a fighter and a free spirit, and nothing keeps that kid down! Thanks for the prayers, get well wishes and even a few gifts! We really appreciate it all!

Being a busy single mom is never easy. Being a freelance one at that is a challenge. Having to take a leave of absence from work for so long has had a major impact. I'm so grateful that we've been able to get by in such hard times, but I really need to get back to work. Soon. That should happen in a couple of weeks. I know someone is looking out for us and we will always have a roof and food, but it scares me - being responsible for her (and myself) and being so unsure about things.

Anyway. Yesterday, I went to Philly to shoot a music video with gorgeous singer Venissa Santi.
http://www.myspace.com/venissasanti
I hope it turned out great, the space was gorgeous but FREEZING. And you fellow trumpeters out there know how that can be! It's one thing to be in a section, marching or whatever... but to be the only horn player, on camera, it was a challenge for sure! I kept my teeth from chattering and my chops from frosting over as best I could, and am looking forward to seeing the final cut! Hearing, well, I hope it came out ok on my end. Everyone sounded great but I found myself adjusting to my mouthpiecicle and ice horn. Ah well, the nature of the beast.

On the bus ride down, there was a gentleman that had a box of candy - like the stuff you buy in a movie theater. He was right across from me so I noticed him taking big handfuls of candy, I don't know what kind but it was all different colors, and picking out one particular color, putting the rest in his sweatshirt pocket. It was so strange - or maybe I was just too sleepy. You know how that goes? Things seem extra bizzaro when you can barely keep your eyes open! But it was funny that I thought of it today while running errands, so I thought it might be something to blog about. Maybe not. I probably could use some decent sleep tonight.

After years of being paranoid travelling with my horn, even on the subways, even walking down the streets, I'm going to try out a Torpedo Bag. Apparently you can run over it with a car and your horn comes out fine. Until they build a case that will make my horn come out BETTER after being run over, I will try this out. I'm torn between the Classic and the fancy leather one so I'm gonna check both out and see. I currently tour with my Protec single bag and while it's *ok*, it's not super. I worry about it falling and damaging the horn. The back pack straps are ok but not really comfy. And I even paid extra for them! It doesn't have a ton of room to hold junk like mutes, music, and makeup (the 3 M's!) So let's see how this works out! I'm very excited for a few reasons...

I shipped my Vax back to Getzen today to get a makeover! Initially we had talked about some etching on my horn but there was never a good enough window to get it done. Well, we have a couple of weeks now and important gigs as well as the video are done, so I smooched it goodbye this morning and brought it to Fedex. So of course, now that it's getting prettified, I'd like to really protect it well.

I'm also waiting for a new flugel to match! This one is a long time coming. My Bach is nice, but falling apart. Every time I look at it, something wiggles or rattles or just makes me nervous. That old girl's been through a lot, since the mid 80s! We'll see...

Off to get my girl to finish her homework. Gosh, I hope we can call it an early night tonight! Or maybe she can just tuck in her poor old mom. :)

xo,
NP

It's a new age here. Lots of repairing and healing to be done, but boy, thank goodness we're getting a chance!

Yesterday was surprisingly fabulous. I had the honor of speaking at the New York Trumpet Day event. Thanks to everyone involved, especially Colin Publishing! What a nice bunch of people!

I walked into the room, my awesome guitarist Ethan Mann was already set up (I had the unfortunate time slot of 10am, and with my daughter going to school at 9am, it's a tight squeeze). There was one audience member, and I laughed... it was just too early for most trumpet players!

As we began to set up, folks trickled in. Kinda made me a bit nervous. It seemed like every scenario was frightening. Empty room, full room... egads. It was trumpet players out there. Scary.

By the time we started though, the room was fairly packed. But I was just so decaffeinated (the room was too hot for me to run out for a cup!) so I guess I was just mellow, sipping my water, thinking "This will all be over in less than an hour".

Well, time flew! Great questions, a fabulous and interesting audience. Some laughs (and hopefully not at my expense!) and finally, at about 10:45, someone shouted "Play something!" Man, I guess we had lost track of time (by we I mean me!) so I picked up my flugel to warm up, did some buzzing on the train and a bit of super early morning warmup before getting my girl up for school, but I was definitley not ready to hit hard. I was pleasantly surprised at my First Thing In The Morning rendition of The Messenger. Ethan was lovely on guitar and if anyone ever needs a fantastic guitarist in NYC, please contact me! I wish I could hire him more!

Got through that, and someone asked to see some playing/moving. So, Ethan "Manned" up and did a great guitar version of Love is a Wonderful Thing, and I had the crowd laughing at my "sugarhorn bop", hitting hits, singing a bit of backup, it was all good fun.

I was so pleasantly surprised by the kind energy of everyone I spoke with. What a wide range of trumpeters. In age, style, level of professional experience, students... it was really great. Some mouthpiece talk, some equipment talk, some valve oil and lip goo speak...

One of the most wonderful connections of the day, though there were a lot, was meeting Jeanne Pocius for the first time. She is a pioneer in Chick Horn Players along with Laurie Frink, my chop doc and current teacher. I recently received Jeanne's book as a gift from fellow trumpeter Rick Rango in Canada for which I am so grateful, and to meet Jeanne in the flesh was just so awesome. I am definitely going to hit her up for a lesson sometime, whether it's here, there or over the internet. Lots of her stuff seems quite compatible with Laurie's Caruso teachings. She even tutored me in proper "Elephant Farting" in the hallway, much to the amusement of a few trumpeters who we were hanging with.

Funny, I dreaded this day a bit, and it ended up renewing my faith in fellow horn players. The road I've travelled as a female trumpeter has not always been kind or even fun. Nice to get a jolt of goodness from my fellow players. Thank you to everyone in attendance, and for all of my friends and family who helped me along the way and helped talk me up for this event. It was such a pleasure! And of course a special plug to my stylist - my daughter. Though someone *else* lent a hand in that, but she really knows how to pick outfits for performances! My daughter has been such an inspiration in my music and of course every day. Even days like today, when she's been EXTRA NAUGHTY. Ugh. I think all is good and she promised me tomorrow would be much, much better. In fact, she will be cleaning through her toys to pick out some cool stuff for children less fortunate, and we will be donating. She's definitley not a kid with "extreme excess" in possessions (remember, I AM a musician!) but I think there's always room for room. How Japanese.

Anyhoo, on her progress - 2 1/2 weeks left of this stinkin' soft food diet. She can NOT wait for the splint to come out, and quite frankly, neither can I. We spend way too much time brushing, it's difficult to clean her mouth out and we have to be gentle and super careful, but I'm so neurotic about teeth that I'm surprised I didn't buy a dentist chair to set up here. Oh right, gotta pay for all that surgery first. Owch.

So, that's all. The animal kingdom is fine, in addition to the 2 kittens-turned-cats, the 2 gecko parents, 2 babies and 4, yes 4 eggs, all seem to be happy. I think 2 eggs are waiting to hatch soon. I saw them shaking the other day. The 2 "children" are ready for selling... I'm gonna miss the little guys/girls but I refuse to get another tank! Yeesh!

That's all from here. Hope everyone is smiling. Life can really suck sometimes, I know, I've been on a rollercoaster for a few months here. Just fasten your seatbelt and if you keep your eyes open, at least you will know where you're going!

On another strange note, I rarely watch tv but sometimes at night it helps me chill out. Well, tonight I flipped on the tele, and found a special on bodybuilder Kelly Ryan - who was a bit of a wonderbod to me as a fitness trainer back in the day. Somehow the news of her and her husband murdering a woman in 2005 totally escaped my world, since I was out of the meat of the business by then, only working independently for a few select clients. That story really blew me away. They claimed in the end that it was drugs etc. I can believe it, drugs make people do idiotic things, but that was just ghastly. Man, I'm so glad I don't fool around with any of that stuff. I feel like a psa, but it really does pay to keep clean. I can barely handle a sip of wine! Enjoy your life with clear vision, an alert mind, and a loving heart.

xo,
NP